Answering phones last week was kind of fun. I didn’t have to do much, and mostly I read. I’ve decided I would like to just do that for the rest of my life. No stress, no fuss. Sadly, though, I am the only one who thinks this would be a good idea. It appears checking out in this way is not an option. On with Plan A then…
I was pretty sick last week but, between work and Christmas, I wasn’t able to take care of myself properly. I’d come home and immediately fall asleep on the couch. Given that insomnia is a permanent way of life for me, this was very strange and indicative of my state-of-being. Since Christmas I’ve just shut down altogether. I’m beginning to feel better physically, and may actually be able to sleep in bed tonight; I have to sleep on the couch when I’m sick because I have to sit straight up. It’s not the easiest thing to sleep this way, but when sick enough you can sleep under even the most adverse conditions.
I’ve also been dealing with a mild case of depression. School breaks have traditionally brought this on, but there’s an added component this time. Ready for this? It’s hard to admit, but here goes…
I got a “B” in one of my classes.
I don’t know why I got this grade. I did well on all of my assignments and actively participated in class. The prof thanked me for my participation, actually, and often initiated discussions with me after class. So it’s a total shock to me that I got this grade. I’m wondering if she got my last assignment; she never graded and returned it to me. We emailed assignments in, and perhaps she didn’t get it or lost it. I don’t know. I was also warned early on by another honor student that no matter what you do, you can’t get better than a “B” in this class, but I didn’t believe her. I just thought that she had messed up somehow. Now I see that she was probably right. I can’t tell you how angry I’ve been since I saw my grade. It’s screwed up my GPA. I went from a 3.98 to a 3.91 overall. Nice way to end my undergrad career, eh? I know, I know, it’s still an excellent GPA. It would be different if I had deserved that “B,” but I didn’t, and that’s what has me so upset.
Right now I feel so pissy that I don’t even feel like going on to grad school. I have a really bad attitude, I know, but I feel like “What’s the point?” Don’t worry, it will pass. But in the meantime, I’m a little snarly on the subject.
In better news, I’m still enjoying good books. They’re a nice distraction. I’ve just finished The Demon King, the first in The Seven Realms series. It’s excellent so far, mainly because of the characters. They’re flawed, but not annoyingly so; they’re more realistic, no easy feat for fantasy characters. The second book was recently released and I’ll be picking it up soon. I received a gift certificate to Barnes & Noble for Christmas, so there are many more books in my future. This makes me happy.
Other Christmas loot acquired:
- The Finkler Question, by Howard Jacobson. Not my normal sort of thing, but my mother likes to push me outside my boundaries with reading material. This is not a bad thing, even if I don’t always like her suggestions.
- A lacy scarf from Victoria’s Secret
- A gift certificate to a local photography store
- Soft faux fur-lined knitted mitten/glove combo in a beautiful pattern
- Hickory Farms gift set (more for Randy than me)
- A donation to a charity that helps educate girls in Afghanistan in my name
- And 2 tickets for me and my mom to go see Bill Cosby again in February.
Best of all was, of course, time spent with family. I love that I have such a close relationship with them. They’re pretty cool, even when they drive me nuts.